With a very heavy heart

I am sorry that I have not posted anything to blog in 2 years, I will try to be better about posting, This past year has taken a heavy toll on me .On Jan.3rd of 2013 lost my Mom the night before my birthday, yes it just sucked the life out of Jan. then my sister was told she had bone cancer, I just could not wrap my head that. during the same time all of this was going I lost some family members, it was a very trying time, fast forward to July 26 I retired completely and at that time Pam and I decide to move our home port to New Bern, NC. so on Aug5th at 0700 we cast the lines off at Wilmington's marina Sawmill Point, head towards New Bern, it was a 2 day trip up the ICW, the first night we stopped in Snead's Ferry at Swan Point, nice,and it was just awesome coming up the waterway and after a couple of snags like running aground to the port transmission being low on oil we made to our new home at 730 pm on the 6th of Aug. then labor day and Pam's daughter spent the night in the ER with kidney problems, which her left kidney shut down and 5 days later they installed a shut in her causing a lot of pain so Pam when to live her, things got real rough between Pam and me on the night of our anv. she came and spent 2 hours with me, it got real nasty after that so she decided that she wanted out of the marriage and I agreed, it did not help that she was under stress about her daughter, so she has got all of her stuff off the LADY STAR and as she put on Tagg and Facebook that she was starting a new chapter and doing the writing on her pages now. and for me, I get up each morning face the day and just keep going and wonder how it is going to be a good day or bad day, I realize I made mistakes in the marriage but that is water over the dam, I can't change that now. so I just keep going well that brings this bog up to date, I will contiue to update at least once a week or daily, as the LADY STAR and Capt. Blue and me motor on .